fml

so last night, i had a dream. & guess who was in it?!?! NO, not my hasbeen1 but my EX hasbeen2! : so it was at spvhs. i was just sitting with my friends,& talking and everything , it was a plainn day of school. then all of a sudden, ms.somewhatperfect comes over all excited saying " OMG 'hes' so hottt. look at him. hes super nice and everything' & blah blah blah. you can probably imagine the death stare that i was giving her in my dream by now. & i responded by saying "well you know what, i DONT care about him anymore" but she could probably tell that i was annoyed. or jealous? nope, i was just annoyed, i think. then i turn around & guess who i see sitting at the table behind us. it was him. EW. i do admit he was lookin pretty cute tho(; but whatev. & then i woke up.

i never really like liked him.; i didnt know him. it was just a crush. a crush that i got over. but i wonder if i really got over him?! i FEEL like i did & i always SAY i am. but am i really?! im pretty sure im over it, but why does he keep appearing in my dream. i think this is the third one he was in, & i dislike that he's in them. Especially since he's always lookin cute in them, it just makes, getting over it RIDICULIUS. or did i just force myself to get over him cause apparently i wasnt good enough for him ): yeah & he got me to admit that im not good enough. & yeah i AM a hypocrite when i say i dont like when people put themselves down cause of a guy. but thats just how it feels. hes honestly whatever & i could care less about him now. its time to let go of him. i just wonder what will happen if i see him at school. NO EYECONTACT, thats the plan. eh.

ill just try to focus on 'tying a tie'.
well thats all );

bye


'foreals, maybe bows arent the business, its those damn ties.' thanks tasha hahaah (: