ugh

ive never wanted to not want you as much as i want to not want you right now, this is what i want

wow

TIE was in my dream AGAIN, i actually dont remember it but i remember it wasnt that cool. hes so cute (:
&i wrote a SUPER SHORT poem about ties in my english class

yeah today was ohkaay, i saw him walking again cause we always go to school late, PERFECT hahhaa but we were perpendicular! so idk if he saw me.. but still. and yeah
the day was whatever . i played the solo in orchestra again and i DEFINITELY SUCKED ... AGAIN. how embarrassing , i felt my face getting hot when i messed up, but we just started reading it yesterday (i sucked more yesterday) and at least i tried :D whether i was good at it or not. i always mess up when i shift back cause its NOT in tune, and then i get caught up in making it in tune that i forget to keep playing HAHA. but its the effort that counts .. :O

& i wish i couldve went to the Clark concert ): i really wanted go. ugh colors of the wind , MY JAM lmfaaaaooo.

i was talking to vanessa on the phone, but it keeps hanging up how sad ); i told her to make a blog. dang i miss her ):

i get so annoyed now a days. i just dont know why. ugh

SO IM ACTUALLY GONNA TRY TOMORROW.
try
really.


oh & i really miss our orchestra from last year ): i miss 8th grade in general.

ties

are mine, dont call your crushes 'ties' , i really hate it, like REALLY REALLY and it annoys me, lets find another name for yours, cause its just NOT fine with me. theres only one tie, even if you got used to calling your guy tie, you should change it, cause it DOES make me mad. kthanks.

speaking of ties, i saw tie today ,TWICE. when i was somewhat-not-really late, and after spanissh! :D hes so cute. i was NOT lookin good today, its a monday, i didnt really care. i always dress wrong on the right days ); whatevv. but mm , what a cutie.

in orchestra, we were sight reading a new song.. and there was a cello solo part, i decided to volunteer.. HAHAHA not so good. it was pretty good for playing it the first time though :D

ugh, im gonna do hw soon ): hopefully tomorrow will be a good day !

"if destiny tries to screw me over, ill kill it & start WWIII"
'maybe bows arent the business, its those damn ties.'


'Quick, what are the first five things that come to mind starting with a K?'
HAHAHHAHAHA
funny.

101609

todaaaay, i saw ashley , brittany , and tyler at the halloween carnival at roger bryannn.. COOL HUH?! yeah very
TYLER youre in the back of the line now ):< & tashas my number 1 , then my bffs (;

so at the carnival, i saw a lot of people, and i met new people. thats how i got the hook-up with the free stuff HAHAHA. & i saw jamal, and said hi & yeah. havent talked to him in forever.
&yeah it was weird. i sang in rockband... HAHHA
billy called me fat, like always , what a faag ); hes cool sometimes tho, ONLY SOMETIMES

tomorrow is forthcoming! i cant wait...you know to look like a freak

kaybye !

):

so sad.
EFF YOU , &no i dont really cuss.
but yeah
fml

'goodluck'

with a smile is all i needed to say.
'thanks' was enough for him to say to make me go crazzzzy.

omgah i saw him A LOT todaaaaaay.
omggggggggggggggggggg omg omg omgmogmgomogmogmgomgogmogmoggomgomgogmogmogmogmogmgomgogmogmogmog


OMG

today WAS a better day i admit it (;

ugh

you asked for 'helpful' hints & hows .
now you guys are together, cool huh. im not saying i did everything, im just saying i probably helped at least a LITTLE. but whats happening?
are you just going to leave your old friends behind? cause you know what, if this gets worse, we WONT be waiting, and we WONT be here for you, dont choose sides, just figure out how to balance it.

im just NOT in a good mood today, idk why. i feel so ugly and fat and omgggg. its like fml
i just dont understand the world sometimes and its NOT my period if thats what any one is thinking. im just blah. everything is eh. & nothings making my day better, it just gets worse.

HOPEFULLY tomorrow will be better, im going to go to brittany's house, and you know.. sit and read her seventeen magazine. and we'll probably go to the spvhs chamber orchestra concert [with the lawrence & fertitta ms orchestras] how exciting right? i hope to see you know who, although i dont do anything. he could definitely make my day by just smiling and saying hi. he'll give me a euphoric feeling ! 'he's a drug' 'yeah a bad one, bad naiyana' ughsjnljakgsjdklgjkag

AND i miss tasha , i havent seen her in too long. whats going on?! im sorry we havent been on the same schedule lately. im excited for cali, where we get to reunite! too bad im scared to watch stepfather, but you'll end up persuading me to go. i miss you ); my other sister.

“I don’t really know you that well, but I can tell that I’m falling for you. Just the littlest things you say makes me get butterflies everyday.”
thats so cuteeee. and its exactly true. well it WOULD be for hasbeen, and it sometimes IS for 'that other kid' wthhhh

so im on the phone with ashley and brittany again. and i guess ashley can tell im sad? im not actually sad, im whatever. like whatever whatever. i cant wait for saturday, i CAN wait for friday tho, cause there are so many tests. i miss everyone, its pretty cool how we all still talk though, even at different schoools. im the one staying in touch with the people at SW, Clark, and LVA. well i try, and its doing ohkay. i miss last year , when everyone was together, and school was easy. too bad, its life !

my phone just hung up on ashley and brittany. it sucks how the signal is gaaaay downstairs.

kaybye! hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

-naaaaapppppppyyy peeeee.

ashley likes doorknobs

HAHAHA.
im on the phone with ashley & brittany right now.
too bad my phone keeps losing signal & i keep hanging up fml!

im DONE with hasbeen jr
DEFINITELY








that only applies for right now tho or maybe forever, who knows.

hi

oh & i forgot to say.
yesterday 2 people said 'wow youre so pretty'
it made me feel good for 10 minutes
thats all tho



AND i miss tasha

& on todaysss newsss

i saw tie, mm cuter then cute? he was in my mind all day, 'til the football game tho HAAH.

i went to the homecoming football game - tailgate thing, its definitely not as cool as when i went to it in like 07? & yeaaaah. i saw angel, he like hates me now or something HAHAHAH i asked about his girlfriend. the one he 'doesnt have' but gio said theyre 'technically' together. i dont understand those two.
& during idk when, i was walking back to where i was sitting and i saw the banddddd kidss! & yeah i see rev! cool huh ,he's short, or at least he looks like it cause yeah. HA, and i said hi. im so mean to him, oh well. and then i walk with vanessa , i randomly get pushed by chris, so i slap him HAHA.
jeezus crazy band kids these days!

today with vanessa was fun.
we're definitely BIPOLAR, you know, like bipolar buddies. HAHAHA.
"call/text if youre interested
-loveeee your bf tie


'sssss wife, yeah (best friend) " LMFAO

HAHAHAHAHA i love vanessa, i miss having her at my school );

HAHA

me : i wanna dream of 'tie'
jennifer : playing the bass.... seductively
me : or 'bow'
jennifer : playing speed... seductively
me : HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
jennifer : HAHAHAHAHAHAHA ! LMAO!

'Naiyana shall have seductive dreams tonight' says jennifer



&thats why i love her HHAHHAHAA.

HAHAHA

-talking about the after-rtc-dance

vivian: its like sex. LOL FUN WHILE DOING IT, but after its gross
me:HAHAHHHAHAAHHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA
vivian:ROFL

so yeah, rtc was funner then fun
hella asians, it was unbelievable.
cheering was fun & it they were stuck in my head allllll daaaaaay!
we did pretty good, i was proud of our school! even if we didnt place.
& idk it was just funn & seeing everyone! like EVERYONE.
&the danceee... interesting (;
i met a lot of people! i just went up to them and introduced myself
SUPER CUTE PEOPLE WERE THERE TOO & that one kid i saw there... (8



ill post pictures up later! or whenever if i even do.

byee!

RTC

was fun
ill definitelywrite about it later, but im tired right now (:



kaybye