HAHHA tasha.

T 'yeah theres 2 possible ways that this might happen, its like 50/50'
N 'tell me what it is'
T ' well one, youll talk to my cutie2 saying hi and what not then your whatshisface will come over and be like heey cutie2! & cutie2 will be like 'heey' & youll be like ' hey you went to the same school too huh?! , and that would be the first one'
N 'WOW, whats the next one?'
T 'well you could talk to cutie2 like the first one and then your whatshisface would come up and slap cutie2's butt all homo-ish and cutie2 will be like wtf? & then cutie2 will be like like "do you remember him? he went to the same school" & youll be like 'uh nah not really ' & whatshisface would be like ' yeah i dont really remember her either' & thats when you say 'well hi im naiyana!'
N 'HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA'

the twenty-seventh

ohkaaay, so school was the same as alwayss.
boring & yeah.
but i saw whatshisface, my hasbeen!(:
i think thats going to be an everyday thing cause his class is close to one of mine.

anywaysss,
i had a dream with hasbeen in it
again?! yeah HAHAHA
he was like ' i have to ask my english teacher something, come with me!'
so i did. then for some reason i was at my house, & i called him to ask him if he wanted this icee drink thing and then asked what his sister wanted.. does he even have a sister?! HA idk.
weird (: then i woke up and got ready for school

HAHHA nothings really happening in my life so thats all

bye :D

tie

whyd you cut your hair?!
i admit youre still adorable as ever though (;





is it time for me to get over you?!

school

the first day of school SUCKED.
HAHAHHA. From the annoying girl in orchestra to the annoying people in life strategies.

&then today was a really good day! actually it was whatever. & boringggggggggg. i saw ex hasbeen, he cut his hair really short HAHAHA. hes still cute ish (:. & then hasbeen cut his hair too, mmm hes still cute as can be! i liked his long -er hair better tho :D anyways.
it was boring.



byee !

);

i hate hanging out with pretty/skinny people..
it just makes me feel blah.





too bad all my friends are prettty&skinnnnnnnny


fml

&yeah

-mine

-for tasha.

really. you guys make us go crazy.. HAHAHAHA
& you dont even know it.

NOT ready.

im going to be a freshman @ spvhs in like 10 days? and im NOT ready. its crazy. a lot of people from my school last year are going there, but where am i without my CLOSE friends who ARENT going there. im scared to go to school HAHAHA. its like being on my own , cause i wont have my friends who have always been around for what feels like forever.

Brittany ; what am i gonna do without you next year?! how am i gonna get through. its ridiculous. i cant believe we've been friends for 9 years? & we've always been at the same school, but this year we wont be. how is this gonna work?! im absolutely worried about next year , and not having you there to go crazy with me is like idk. ugh im gonna miss you next year ):

Vanessa ; OMG, what am i going to do without my gossiping buddy & partner! haaahaha best friends forever! we got closer then close last year, and we practically know everything about each others lives. we've been through so much. what happened to ' yeahh we'll both go to spv! :D' good job for making it into LVA tho , i might just go crazy without you next year.

Diane ; youre always there to listen & help out ): ill be trippin out next year & everything. Bestfrinds since the bus rides! (; HAHAHA you smarty pants. we've had MORE then enough shared memories ! & yeah ): have fuuun @ clark with ashley & brittany ..

Ashley; omg ashley. youre such a weirdo, okay WE'RE weirdos (x how am i going to be weird without you next year! & youre not going to be there at lunch everyday! or writing those ridiculous storiesss that i loovee! hahaaahaa. we need to keep each other updated on everythingggg . We became bestfriends in like 7th gradee?! haha & its sad how we're not going to the same hs anymore.. ill miss our weirdness ): like after lunch.. pushing you over.. the hand slapping game.. and me having no coordination and just tripping

Bianka ; daang, youre the one that always cheers anyone upp (: we got super close! & we had that huge thing with my crush @ the beggining of schoool! & omg our crazy singing after school 'decode , viva la vida' & like EVERYTHING. plus our future husbands! well we're not reallly obsessed anymore but we WERE hahaha. & now we have that tradition of watching twilight movies together on that first day (: and like i dont know what happened towards the end of the year tho,but still. HAHA singing partners forever!

Jennifer ; jennifer, jennifer,jennifer. we actually really didnt talk during 8th grade year. HAHA it was just like a quick 'hello, goodbye' thing & me giving you the answers for the bonus questions in geography (x but like at summer school we got SUPER CLOSE. and now youre one of my closest friends. youre my partner in crime! bonnie & clyde & everrythaang! HAHA we have A LOT of memories from summer school & it was ONLY 6 weeks long. it was fun making new friends with you.. & making up things like hasbeeeeensss & whatshisfacess.. & not being homo, well little intended HAHA. you were there through my SADDEST time, & that happiest time & you know.. the day you thought i was gonna go unconcious cause of a certain someone (; how am i gonna make any moves next year without you by my side! HA, ill update you tho & tell you how operation 'tying my tie' is going.

Yeah, ill miss them A LOT, but what can i do. all i CAN do is keep in touch. we all can SAY that but who knows whats going to happen after school starts and we all get back to business. will we have enough time? will we WANT to keep in touch? will we even remember? who knows.

ugh.

bye.

uhm.

i can get happy by just the sight/sound of his name.



im crazy ):

fuun

yeah so yesterday vanessa DIDNT come over. but brittany did (; me & brittany made brownies yesterday! it was ridiculous tho cause at one point we didnt know the oven was off... so we had to check it every 5 minutes HAHHAA. but the brownies were good mmm! then we were just talking & talking & then watched this plastic surgery show.. HAHAHAH it was intresting, then she went home@ 9.

& today vanessa DID come over (: she came over & was eating all the brownies. & then she wanted to eat tuna, so we made tuna sandwichess & tuna w/ crackers. she ate half of my sandwich after hers HAHA, & she has a crazy phobia of cheese, jk, she just doesnt like cheese. & then we went upstairs & talkeed, idk i forgot.HA then we got hungry again & made more food. then went upstairs again& took pictures, went on the laptop, played speed & talked about what happened @ summer school . ugh, i hate that topic, but its already the past. & yeah.. HAHAHA we were pretty unproductive. it was funn hanging out with her though bffs! :D

anywayss
here are some pictures (:


bye!

another dream (: & yeah.

that other dream sucked,but guess who starred in my dream this time. TIE! :D hahaha with his cutesy self (; . i usually forget my dreams once i wake up, but ive been remembering them now a days! its intresting. ANYWAYS, my hasbeen was in my dream & mmm he was cuter then cute in it. with his swoosh hair & perfect face HAHA. this is like the 3rd/4th one he was in?! in the first , he was just in there for like a second. HAHAHA
but my favorite dream was when we were at Spvhs (idk why everything happens there HAHA) & we were just sitting at a table with his friends holding hands. ohmygahndjsakgjnksadjksgal (: & like his friend , lets call him 'swimmy', comes over, & is like ' dang i needa make a move on this girl but idk how' . So i was like 'OH , lemme show you how!' i was like ' be like WOW your hands are tiny/smooth! & then BAM' <- just like tasha said HAAHA. . So i showed him how & he looks over to my hasbeen & says 'are you jealous right now?!' . & he looked kinda mad. then i woke up. thats a funny dream (; i guess i was just thinking of tasha making crazy moves on people&tie HAHA. this is the end result of that.

&the one where i was walking & walking& walking. and then he pops up and goes 'heey, arent you johns friend?' & im like ' yeah , youre kai right?' i had to act casual HAHA. & hes like 'yeaah, i remember you because of that necklace, whats your name?' & im like 'naiyana, its hard to remember & awhh you remember my necklace from that one day? i should name it after you' HAHAH


& then there was the dream from yesterday.
i was on a bus with brittany & there were a lot of kids on it. Everyone got dropped off in this neighborhood and we all started to walk. THEN, brittany yells 'LOOK there he is!' & you know who i saw :D !& she runs over to him & brings him over & we talk for a while HA& he touches my hand and says something but i dont think i was listening to him HAHA, & then i walk away & talk to other people. Angel&gio were in it tooo, they were just walking home, they lived like 2 houses away from each other. theyre just randomly in there. Then, we, as in brittany, supa, tasha, tie , me & some other people walk into this house. & in the backyard theres like a baseball stadium & a game going on. & the teachers or whoever were there told us we couldnt watch the game... HAHAH then i woke up. weird huh?

wow. weird. is this a sign or what?! (;
so today, vanessa, brittany & tanya are supposed to come over so we can do exactly NOTHING, well actually we might do something. like make tuna sandwiches&brownies & then stare at the wall for the remaining hours. ill update this laterr

bye for now (:

fml

so last night, i had a dream. & guess who was in it?!?! NO, not my hasbeen1 but my EX hasbeen2! : so it was at spvhs. i was just sitting with my friends,& talking and everything , it was a plainn day of school. then all of a sudden, ms.somewhatperfect comes over all excited saying " OMG 'hes' so hottt. look at him. hes super nice and everything' & blah blah blah. you can probably imagine the death stare that i was giving her in my dream by now. & i responded by saying "well you know what, i DONT care about him anymore" but she could probably tell that i was annoyed. or jealous? nope, i was just annoyed, i think. then i turn around & guess who i see sitting at the table behind us. it was him. EW. i do admit he was lookin pretty cute tho(; but whatev. & then i woke up.

i never really like liked him.; i didnt know him. it was just a crush. a crush that i got over. but i wonder if i really got over him?! i FEEL like i did & i always SAY i am. but am i really?! im pretty sure im over it, but why does he keep appearing in my dream. i think this is the third one he was in, & i dislike that he's in them. Especially since he's always lookin cute in them, it just makes, getting over it RIDICULIUS. or did i just force myself to get over him cause apparently i wasnt good enough for him ): yeah & he got me to admit that im not good enough. & yeah i AM a hypocrite when i say i dont like when people put themselves down cause of a guy. but thats just how it feels. hes honestly whatever & i could care less about him now. its time to let go of him. i just wonder what will happen if i see him at school. NO EYECONTACT, thats the plan. eh.

ill just try to focus on 'tying a tie'.
well thats all );

bye


'foreals, maybe bows arent the business, its those damn ties.' thanks tasha hahaah (:

jealous |:

yeah, im extremelly jealous. Jealous of how pretty everyone is ): & i hate how they dont think they are or they let guys make them feel bad. It already makes me feel bad about myself, so why cant you just accept the fact that youre pretty. i just dont understand.

Like jennifer, youre absolutely perfect ! Youre smarter then like ANYONE and youre looks are just flawless. & youre really fun to be around, . Honestly who wouldnt love you?! & when your EX hasbeen i guess wasnt feelin you, you got sad . & you asked everyone what was wrong with you. i not only wanted to throw something at HIM but i wanted to hit YOU. Like really, why would you let a guy make you feel that way, he really wasnt worth it in the end, besides you can get anyone else, youre at the top of the pyramid (;

&my own older sister supatra. i always look up to you : & i want to be like you. youre really pretty, & i hate when you say youre not. you KNOW youre hot HAHA. thats why guys always like you ): i just wanna be like you most times. why do you think i aways want to steal your clothes?! or do what you do. youre a role model & even if its me vs. you, i think youre perfect (:

& then theres YOU tasha. i know youre reading this, cause i told you to. Youre honestly REALLY REALLY pretty. You've come a longgg waay & im most jealous cause of you. & on top of everything you got really skinny. I KNOW why a lot of guys look at you, not only cause you have a huge butt, but because youre pretty faced (: but i HATE how you always say youre ugly or fat. cause youre not. you've changed A LOT from beforee & you've come too far to not even give yourself credit. & i dislike how you always put yourself down when you like a guy. you KNOW theyre intrested but always think the stupidest stuff, like you think that the guy thinks youre ugly or not good enough when you ARE : you have a crazy fun personality, & you know how to have fun with everything. Its always fun to be around you , & youre, if not good enough for ANY guy, then youre better. you never believe it when anyone says youre pretty. & you need to convince yourself to believe it.

look @ that picture , can you honestly tell me you havent changed?


dont tell me youre not pretty enough, or skinny enough. cause youre perfect&gorgeous the way you are [:


so yeah, i just needed to say that. you guys are all pretty, & it just makes me jealous when i go out with you guys! & it just makes me feel worse if you guys put yourself down. Its like im hanging with the prettiest people around, and i stick out like a sore thumb ): but i still lalalalove you guys.well thats all.

kaybye.

back home (:

thursday night, i went to tashas house for patricks bbq birthday thing! that was fuunnn . & then i slept over , and was supposed to leave that morning, but i was too tired HA. so i stayed again and went to dee dee's surprize birthday. it felt weird there cause i didnt know anyone but dee dee, tasha, and steven. But before that, me & tasha decided to dress up, like CRAZY CRAZY. HAHAH it was ridiculously fun (: & then today i went to eat with the fam & went swimming because our pool isnt green anymore :D its super exciting.

&tomorrow is sunday! i have no idea what im doing.

i have the biggest urge to shop ): i need new clothes for next year. ugh, i WANT to go to school but then i dont. i dont cause its school & really... who wants to go to school?! other then for friends HAHAHA. & my bestest friends arent going there ): but i DO want to go because .. you know why... (; .. my mr.cutie/ hasbeen/ egg goes there. i doubt i'll talk to him tho . i honestly dont think im good enough for him anyways ): HAHAHAHA & then theres Angel, Jamal, & Giomar. i DOUBT ill even say hi to them , just cause they'll probably ignore me or they've forgotten about me. i really dont actually care tho, maybe ill just avoid them PLUS that other kid that was in their little group of 4.

i feel so unproductive since summer school ended. WTH

heres the picture with me&tasha.. being crazy.. HAHAHA

kaythanksbye (;