daang

its been a week or so.
whats happened so far? well my halloween party passed. it was funn (: there was somewhat a lot of people. trick or treating sucked, but it was still fun chilling. definifely a reunion! i miss everyone. thanks for coming!

oh & this was my horoscope on 10/27/09
'For example, today you may feel doubts about your physical appearance. Are you questioning your attractiveness or your ability to make an impression on someone special?' how convienently right was that?

oh so my dream... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
'it was breads birthday or something and like everyone was there. bread, jennifer, her hasbeen, bigass, me , tie , bows and like hella other people. Me& bread were dancing ; ACTUALLY i was giving him a lap dance (weird huh) you know.. for his birthday[definitely the wrong person, but hes hot too (;] then we danced as couples, bigass&bread, jennifer&her hasbeen and me&tie (cause bread told me to dance with tie) and we were having fun and the backyard was bigg. it was cool and there was a pool too!'
'i actually gave him a lap dance'
'uh oh, just hope tie didnt see'
'yeah hopefully he didnt HAHA'
'he probably did HAHAHA'
'no no no, hopefully he wasnt watching HAHAH, well it was for breads birthday, so im sure tie would understand'
'HAHAHHA yeah right"

cool huh LMFAO shes funny. im weird.

Anyways ;
Wth in my head :
Wow, is it you? Or you? wait why are you here? why are you? Wait i know you should be here, but itd probably be better if you left? What about you? why're you here? & you too? All 4? & youre all at my school? The other 2 not so much? Wth is going on here, why is this happening? :O how confusing.

Sometimes ;
i wanna cry cause im so fat & not pretty. Im starting a whole new diet this month, & ill be doing it for months. well im definitely gonna try. HELLA. Being fat, is being ugly, well FOR ME. And that is exactly what i am. Why would anyone ever like me? HOW could anyone ever like me? Im so fat, and ugly. Im so stupid for thinking i ever have a chance with anyone. I have to do something about this, my fat & ugliness is just not gonna cut it.

Well, i should go start to do my hw now. im eh right now. kaybye