whats going on ):

1 ;
i miss you oh so much. i havent even seen you in forever, literally. i hope i get to see you on christmas eve with the fam, cause i really need to talk to you /: updates & everything. too bad we didnt get to hang out today. hopefully this is just one of those times that we arent as close, and that it will pass later and we'll be super close again. i need and miss my other SISTER );

c's ;
you guys go to clark now. i always think 'its always about you and your clark friends' cause really, it is sometimes. i talk to you guys a lot, but in the end, its always talking about something about clark, and i have no idea what to do, so all i do is make comments. we WERE bffs, but now im so confused, cause we cant even talk about the same stuff anymore, and were not experiencing the same things going on , its getting weird. you guys might not notice it, but we ARE drifting.

j;
i just saw you on saturdayy. thanks for inviting me! but we barely talked. i miss you, we need that intervention , and we need to hangout, like just chill, and talk about our life.. AND guys definitely. sometimes i feel so left out tho, you have your group of 4 girlss, but its MY fault tho. you guys are/ were bffs firsttttt , so theres really nothing i can do about it. youre still one of my bffs tho . oh& lets not forget i DO love your group of 4 (;

s;
so you & him are 'in love' . well i believe it. but is it really worth putting him in front of family? im seriously annoyed. you alwayss see him -_-and you ALWAYS find a way too see him, even when its not neeeded. you skip EVERY sunday which IS family day just to be with him . pick another day or something. our family FROM CALI is coming on christmas eve/christmas and what are you going to be doing? youre gonna go surprize anthony for like the whole christmas day. you see him every week, and we havent seen our famillyy in cali since october. tell me which is your first priority. you work early a lot, and are 'too tired' to do anything with us the rest of the day, but if HE somehow asks you to do something, youre all for it. really? wth. he's stealing you from your family, and hes changing you, not ALL for the best. and you guys ALWAYS fight, and he stops you from doing things. he gets you depressed, and just everythingsdjakglasjkglsjkls . im annoyed of him. and so is a lot of the family. he cant even just chill with us. he doesnt even deserve some of the stuff you do for him. what does he do? nothing? no, cause WE have to tell HIM how/when/what to do. OH, and youre ALWAYS mooody now? why? tell me why. is it the bc? is it work? or is it him? cause youve never ever been this moody before. its in our genes to get mad, but youre just MEAN sometimes /:
youre out , seeing him right now, you said you'd be back at 6:30 , pfft. right.

v;
youre at lva. i dont even talk to you anymore, like AT ALL. youre always doing something. or youre busy. its you and your dance girls, your dance girls and you. i dont even know whats going on in your life anymoree :O we used to be the bestest friends ever , like yeah. you know.

b;
theres nothing i can say. i dont talk to you anymore.

i hate driftinggg. but i need to get it through my head. we all wont be close forever. theres really nothing i can do. i try to talk to everyone, staying in touch. life is eh right now.
i miss everyone.