It's complicated

It really is. You need to see it & be there to understand it. I know I can't make him like me just like that, but I don't think you should say I didn't try. I mean it's not trying to my best potential but still. You have to understand what's going on, the situation, how it is and him. & yeah I always let my emotions get the best of me, I'm not gonna lie & i let my short temper take over. It's harder then you think , plus me being scared doesn't help the situation. There's always that one thing I CAN do but don't want to cause I'm too scared. You know why I'm scared? Cause I'm scared of rejection, which I'm sure is 100% what will happen. I could just tell him to get it out there but eh. I just can't do it. I can't bring myself to do it. I'm literally trapping myself in this circle. I'm attached and I don't even have a legit reason as to why I am. Why ? Well I just don't know.